An Extreme Low Moment

Life can completely suck sometimes.  There, I said it.  All in all, I try to keep my blog as positive as I can, there are times I use it as a sounding board to vent, but for the most part, I try to not air to much negativity on here.  We all go through things in our lives and when it’s bad, I feel it is important to stay as positive as I can.  Do I always stay positive?  Nope, I don’t and those time I usually call upon those that I can count on,  and cry, sometimes to the point where they can’t understand me.  Yep, sling snot and sob, big time.

I am usually a pretty upbeat person, take some things in stride sometimes, not so much.  I have had people in my life that I really thought I could count on, others I knew I could not.  Today I found out the hard way, that don’t confided in anyone because once it leaves you lips, you have no control.

I am devastated.  I am mad.  I am disappointed.  I am in attack mode.  I am weepy.  I want to confront.  I want to keep quite.  I want to be heard.  I want to fall asleep.  I can’t fall asleep.  I want to disappear, but then I want to be seen.  I want to trust, but I will never trust again.  I am a failure.  I am in  a bad place.  I need to pray, but struggle to do just that.  The devil is happy.  My God is big.  Much bigger than this. 

Pray for me, please.