Pondering Things

I have been quiet for awhile, pondering over a few things.

Christmas was great at our house and it was good to break free from the hustle of life for a few days. I have been off work since the 23rd and will not have to go back until the 3rd. A good break to sit back and reflect.

So what is all the refection about? Good question. I have been thinking of the things that keep running through my mind, mostly my blog. What is it about? When I started my blog it was mostly for keeping track of our family. I have never been a great scrapbook keeper or even a photo album keeper for that matter. As you know, life changes fast and I was not good keeping a record of anything. I thought a blog would be a great place to do that…and it has been.

Blogging is something I enjoy, I enjoy it more than what you would think considering that I have not been posting much. For a while I posted everything, our life, our kids, things that were going on in our life, the good and the bad. Then I heard of some criticism about what I was posting and I became gun shy. I stopped and was very selective on what I posted. I became so selective that I quit blogging for a while and when I did, I was reading and rereading what I was writing so much that I would get frustrated and quit the post.

Which leads me to where I am right now. I am so busy not blogging for the fear of being critiqued that I have been barely blogging at all and I am not happy with that!

Here is an example that what I am talking about. Not to long ago I talked about my son that is in college. Tough love, is it enough or too much, was the blog title. I anguished over it. After I posted it I got great feed back from other parents that were going through similar situations. It was great…not that they were going through what we were going through, but knowing that we were not the only people dealing with this.

As a society, I feel we are living out our lives perfect. Only showing the world our perfect side, the perfect things our children do, the great promotions that our spouses receive, the Christmas card showing the most perfect family full of smiles, the great successes that we accomplish, not the pitfalls that we face. What if we lived in a glass house? What if we lived our life transparently? Would it be different?

I am not saying that life is not great and we should not talk about the good things that happen, but what if we were honest and shared the not so perfect as well. I guess I am there. I want to blog with transparency. We are so super blessed and I look forward to sharing the good, but there are also things that happen that is not so super good and it would be nice to get support from those that might be going through the same sort of thing.

I got super deep there for a bit, but I think I might be changing my blog up some. I blog for me and I need to get back there. Who cares if those that may read my blog disagree with what I say. I am being me and I am looking forward to blogging again!